As much as we would love not to, at times we all experience pain. This may be physical pain, emotional pain, etc., but we all experience it at one point or another. Sometimes it's minor, other times it's severe. We never know for sure when it will hit, but we know it will happen sometime.
A lot of people question this, though, saying "Why would a perfect and just God allow this?" Well, there is no definite answer (at least, not that I am aware of) but I believe there are some very good possibilities.
The first is simply the introduction of sin. I don't believe we were ever supposed to feel pain, as long as we were without sin. Obviously, we know that didn't last long. In Genesis, the Bible explains that because of Adam's sin, he (and men after him) would endure the pain of labor. Because of Eve's sin, she (and women who followed) would experience great pain during childbirth.
This isn't to say that the pain you are experiencing is directly caused by sin. The truth is, only God Himself knows why pain is allowed. I'm sure scholars and theologians have debated this question for centuries. I am neither of those, so I can only go based on my faith and the knowledge I have.
Since we know that we can't always avoid pain, I believe we should focus on what we can learn from it. In many cases, it is telling us that something needs to change. Pain is the result of signals sent from the area to the brain to alert us to a problem. These pain receptors tell us when something is burning, has been overused, or something else. We can take this idea and apply it to other forms of pain.
Emotional pain be caused by so many different things - failures, disappointments, ending of relationships, the list goes on. I am a big advocate for counseling and other therapy to deal with this type of pain because many times, we alone cannot be sure of the reason we hurt.
The reason I bring this topic up is this: I have been in a lot of pain lately (of various types) and I continue to find healing in God and His word. I know that the pain in some cases is making me stronger and in others is just something I have to deal with. I may not understand why until I am in heaven, but according to my faith, I know that God is in control and will never let me go through more than I can handle.
Pain, anxiety, stress, etc. may be the common theme for the next month or so because that is what I have had to deal with for the past few months. There is so much that I have learned from it, though. I plan on having more on this tomorrow when I can concentrate a little more (I have been in a lot of pain this evening, so I am praying for a much better day tomorrow).
God bless,
Kenny
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Today has been an interesting (and long) day. I had to work early this morning and didn't get much sleep last night. I figured I would try to take a nap this afternoon, but I ended up not having time to do that because I had other things to take care of. So now, here it is a little after midnight and I'm still awake.
This week has been a blessing in many ways for me. I have been in a tremendous amount of pain lately, combined with a lot of fatigue and other issues. It's been an ongoing problem for quite some time. After ruling out other possibilities (such as rheumatoid arthritis, lupus, etc.), my doctor began treating me on Monday for fibromyalgia.
If you don't know what fibromyalgia is, here is the basic overview: it is described as inflammation of the fibrous or connective tissue of the body, with widespread pain, including in certain tender points. For me, this has basically meant that my body feels like I have the flu a large part of the time.
The medicine I was given this week has helped a lot. I can definitely notice a difference. Obviously, it'll take a while for me to feel "normal" again. A large part of the treatment is simply aerobic exercise and sleeping well. That will be easier once the pain is under control, which is hopefully coming soon.
Part of what can make it worse is stress, and I have definitely been under a lot of that lately. There are so many issues going on that have a lot of people in my life stressed. I don't blame them for being stressed at all, since there is a lot of uncertainty. However, as I've mentioned in the last couple of blogs, I know that God already has tomorrow planned out...
Isaiah 41:10 -
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
and then Isaiah 41:13 -
For I am the LORD, your God,
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you.
I have to admit, I don't have these verses memorized word for word and scripture location by location. (Big thanks to Google for the help! lol) However, that is part of the purpose for this blog - for me to find scripture that helps me deal with the things going on in my life. As I've already found, they are pretty general topics that probably apply to all of us. We all have things in our lives we are uncertain about. We all have sin in our lives we are dealing with, and we are generally all facing some tough times in at least one area of our lives or another.
If I have learned one thing in my life, it is that I cannot do this on my own. Every time I have tried, I have failed. I will go into more detail on that on another day (believe me, I could write a book). For now, I leave you with this scripture, which I whole-heartedly believe:
Luke 1:37
For nothing is impossible with God. (emphasis added)
This week has been a blessing in many ways for me. I have been in a tremendous amount of pain lately, combined with a lot of fatigue and other issues. It's been an ongoing problem for quite some time. After ruling out other possibilities (such as rheumatoid arthritis, lupus, etc.), my doctor began treating me on Monday for fibromyalgia.
If you don't know what fibromyalgia is, here is the basic overview: it is described as inflammation of the fibrous or connective tissue of the body, with widespread pain, including in certain tender points. For me, this has basically meant that my body feels like I have the flu a large part of the time.
The medicine I was given this week has helped a lot. I can definitely notice a difference. Obviously, it'll take a while for me to feel "normal" again. A large part of the treatment is simply aerobic exercise and sleeping well. That will be easier once the pain is under control, which is hopefully coming soon.
Part of what can make it worse is stress, and I have definitely been under a lot of that lately. There are so many issues going on that have a lot of people in my life stressed. I don't blame them for being stressed at all, since there is a lot of uncertainty. However, as I've mentioned in the last couple of blogs, I know that God already has tomorrow planned out...
Isaiah 41:10 -
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
and then Isaiah 41:13 -
For I am the LORD, your God,
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you.
I have to admit, I don't have these verses memorized word for word and scripture location by location. (Big thanks to Google for the help! lol) However, that is part of the purpose for this blog - for me to find scripture that helps me deal with the things going on in my life. As I've already found, they are pretty general topics that probably apply to all of us. We all have things in our lives we are uncertain about. We all have sin in our lives we are dealing with, and we are generally all facing some tough times in at least one area of our lives or another.
If I have learned one thing in my life, it is that I cannot do this on my own. Every time I have tried, I have failed. I will go into more detail on that on another day (believe me, I could write a book). For now, I leave you with this scripture, which I whole-heartedly believe:
Luke 1:37
For nothing is impossible with God. (emphasis added)
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Worry
I don't have my computer with me, so I am updating this on my phone...so this post will be short. I have been thinking more about the anxiety and worry subjects, especially with everything going on. I am drawn back to Matthew 6...as part of the Sermon on the Mount. I will put the scripture below, but one thing I want to point out is how strongly Jesus feels about us not worrying about our lives. God already has a plan for us, and He will take care of us according to His great plan. Here is the scripture I want to share from Matthew 6 (NIV, copied from biblegateway.com):
25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
I pray that we would all follow that advice, especially right now.
God bless,
Kenny
25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
I pray that we would all follow that advice, especially right now.
God bless,
Kenny
Friday, February 19, 2010
Stress
It seems like, without fail, every Lent season is stressful. This year is no exception. I thought maybe we would get a little further into it before it started to hit, though.
Right now, my wife and I are facing some uncertainty in a couple areas of our lives. Looking at it from a worldly standpoint, it would be easy to start freaking out. Actually, it's pretty hard not to freak out if you look at all the different ways things could pan out.
However, the good news for us is that no matter which way things go, God is there for us. I'm reminded of Philippians 4:4-9 (NIV):
(4) Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! (5) Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. (6) Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. (7) And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
(8) Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. (9) Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
I think the key verse for me is verse 6: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." (emphasis added)
I am, by my nature, a fairly anxious person. I tend to worry about a lot of things. However, this scripture gives me peace. Nowhere does it say that everything will work out the way I want it to. Instead, it says that I need to be thankful when I ask God to take control of these situations - not just ones I struggle with, but with ALL situations - and God will give me peace about whatever happens.
That is truly the toughest part here. It's easy for us to get disappointed when things don't go our way. We often forget, though, that God has the bigger picture in mind. For more than 4 years, I prayed that God would give me a specific job. Time and time again, I was passed over for that job. It didn't seem to make sense - everyone around me was saying I should've gotten it. For more than 2 of those years, I struggled with no full time job and only lived on part-time hours. God provided for me during that time, even though it was rough.
Then, finally, I was offered a full-time job. However, it wasn't the one I had prayed for. Sure, I could have looked at it as though God still wasn't answering my prayer or that I was being cheated. I wasn't being cheated though, it was just a different answer than I expected.
God has blessed me through the job I did get. He has provided for me (and now my wife, as well) through the job and other opportunities that He has given me. I think had I not went through the waiting period I did, I might not be as appreciative of what I have.
I have realized that no matter how bad things look now, they WILL be okay in the end. Maybe we are struggling so that we can learn a lesson. Maybe it is to make us stronger, or maybe it is for a reason that we will never know. All I know is that God never fails - He always provides for us, and no matter what, I will keep my eyes focused on Him.
Right now, my wife and I are facing some uncertainty in a couple areas of our lives. Looking at it from a worldly standpoint, it would be easy to start freaking out. Actually, it's pretty hard not to freak out if you look at all the different ways things could pan out.
However, the good news for us is that no matter which way things go, God is there for us. I'm reminded of Philippians 4:4-9 (NIV):
(4) Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! (5) Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. (6) Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. (7) And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
(8) Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. (9) Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
I think the key verse for me is verse 6: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." (emphasis added)
I am, by my nature, a fairly anxious person. I tend to worry about a lot of things. However, this scripture gives me peace. Nowhere does it say that everything will work out the way I want it to. Instead, it says that I need to be thankful when I ask God to take control of these situations - not just ones I struggle with, but with ALL situations - and God will give me peace about whatever happens.
That is truly the toughest part here. It's easy for us to get disappointed when things don't go our way. We often forget, though, that God has the bigger picture in mind. For more than 4 years, I prayed that God would give me a specific job. Time and time again, I was passed over for that job. It didn't seem to make sense - everyone around me was saying I should've gotten it. For more than 2 of those years, I struggled with no full time job and only lived on part-time hours. God provided for me during that time, even though it was rough.
Then, finally, I was offered a full-time job. However, it wasn't the one I had prayed for. Sure, I could have looked at it as though God still wasn't answering my prayer or that I was being cheated. I wasn't being cheated though, it was just a different answer than I expected.
God has blessed me through the job I did get. He has provided for me (and now my wife, as well) through the job and other opportunities that He has given me. I think had I not went through the waiting period I did, I might not be as appreciative of what I have.
I have realized that no matter how bad things look now, they WILL be okay in the end. Maybe we are struggling so that we can learn a lesson. Maybe it is to make us stronger, or maybe it is for a reason that we will never know. All I know is that God never fails - He always provides for us, and no matter what, I will keep my eyes focused on Him.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Ash Wednesday
Today was Ash Wednesday, the official kickoff to Lent. So, probably the best way to start this blog is to explain what Lent is.
Lent is a period in which Christians prepare themselves for Easter. This is generally 40 days, which signifies the 40 days that Jesus spent in the desert and was tempted by Satan.
If you look at the calendar, though, there are 46 days between Ash Wednesday and Easter. Different churches calculate the days differently, but my Protestant church excludes Sundays to get the 40 day period. For that 40 days, people give up something that they enjoy(sometimes candy, caffeine, chocolate, etc.). Those that exclude Sundays usually allow people to partake in whatever they gave up on Sundays. Of course, this varies depending on the section or denomination of Christianity.
But why do we give something up in the first place? If all you are doing is not eating candy, how do you get closer to God?
The key is to take the time you would normally do with that activity and use it to focus on God. Some people give up their time. In my case, I am giving up time that I would normally spend browsing the Internet or doing other stuff to make sure I post a blog. I don't mind writing but it is not what I would call an enjoyable pasttime for me. The bigger picture for me, though, is that it forces me to think about God and spend time in the Bible.
I want to share some scripture that my pastor shared with us this evening. This is part of the Sermon on the Mount. I will split it up into three sections describing giving, praying, and fasting. The entire passage is Matthew 6:1-18.
Giving
(1)"Be careful not to do your 'acts of righteousness' before men, to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven. (2) So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. (3) But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, (4) so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."
You'll see throughout the passage a common theme about keeping your acts secret. A lot of people seem to enjoy the attention they get from giving to charities or the needy. What Jesus is saying here is that the attention received would be the full reward - however, by giving when no one is looking, you will be rewarded greater by God.
Praying
(5) "And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. (6) But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. (7)And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. (8)Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.
(9) "This, then, is how you should pray:
'Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
(10)your kingdom come,
your will be done
on earth as it is in heaven.
(11) Give us today our daily bread.
(12) Forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.
(13) And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from the evil one.' (14)For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. (15) But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
There are two major themes that I see here. The first is the importance of quiet prayer time. Some people like to pray for show, but I think the best way to pray is in the quiet of your own home or other place where you can get away. The best way for you to talk to God is to make sure you've cut out all distractions. The conversation should be between you and God, not just so someone else can see you and think highly of you. Again the theme here is that if you do something just to get attention, that's the only reward you will get.
The second theme I'm sseeing is how if we expect God to forgive us, we need to be able to forgive others. I know so many people who hold on to grudges with people but yet expect that God will forgive them for everything. It goes along with the Golden Rule. If you want God to forigve you, then forgive others.
That's not saying it's easy, and I'll probably do a few more blogs about this topic later. I have been hurt by a few people, and I've done my share of hurting others, so I'm afraid I have experience in this subject.
Fasting
(16) "When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show men they are fasting. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. (17) But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, (18) so that it will not be obvious to men that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."
This is where the "giving something up for Lent" thing comes into play. If you are giving something up, it shouldn't be obvious to everyone else. They shouldn't be able to look at you and say, "Man, you look terrible!" Instead, this should again be between you and God.
This isn't to say that you can't tell people what you are giving up. Obviously, I'm doing that here! The key is that while you want to be a good witness, you also want it to be an intimate thing between you and your Heavenly Father.
I realize this initial Lent post went kind of long. They will not all be this long - some will be shorter, some longer. I won't always be covering Lent-specific topics but just about anything that pops up into my head. If you have a topic suggestion, comment here or e-mail me: kenny.beasley@gmail.com.
God bless,
Kenny
(Note: Scripture taken from biblegateway.com, NIV version.)
Lent is a period in which Christians prepare themselves for Easter. This is generally 40 days, which signifies the 40 days that Jesus spent in the desert and was tempted by Satan.
If you look at the calendar, though, there are 46 days between Ash Wednesday and Easter. Different churches calculate the days differently, but my Protestant church excludes Sundays to get the 40 day period. For that 40 days, people give up something that they enjoy(sometimes candy, caffeine, chocolate, etc.). Those that exclude Sundays usually allow people to partake in whatever they gave up on Sundays. Of course, this varies depending on the section or denomination of Christianity.
But why do we give something up in the first place? If all you are doing is not eating candy, how do you get closer to God?
The key is to take the time you would normally do with that activity and use it to focus on God. Some people give up their time. In my case, I am giving up time that I would normally spend browsing the Internet or doing other stuff to make sure I post a blog. I don't mind writing but it is not what I would call an enjoyable pasttime for me. The bigger picture for me, though, is that it forces me to think about God and spend time in the Bible.
I want to share some scripture that my pastor shared with us this evening. This is part of the Sermon on the Mount. I will split it up into three sections describing giving, praying, and fasting. The entire passage is Matthew 6:1-18.
Giving
(1)"Be careful not to do your 'acts of righteousness' before men, to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven. (2) So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. (3) But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, (4) so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."
You'll see throughout the passage a common theme about keeping your acts secret. A lot of people seem to enjoy the attention they get from giving to charities or the needy. What Jesus is saying here is that the attention received would be the full reward - however, by giving when no one is looking, you will be rewarded greater by God.
Praying
(5) "And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. (6) But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. (7)And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. (8)Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.
(9) "This, then, is how you should pray:
'Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
(10)your kingdom come,
your will be done
on earth as it is in heaven.
(11) Give us today our daily bread.
(12) Forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.
(13) And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from the evil one.' (14)For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. (15) But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
There are two major themes that I see here. The first is the importance of quiet prayer time. Some people like to pray for show, but I think the best way to pray is in the quiet of your own home or other place where you can get away. The best way for you to talk to God is to make sure you've cut out all distractions. The conversation should be between you and God, not just so someone else can see you and think highly of you. Again the theme here is that if you do something just to get attention, that's the only reward you will get.
The second theme I'm sseeing is how if we expect God to forgive us, we need to be able to forgive others. I know so many people who hold on to grudges with people but yet expect that God will forgive them for everything. It goes along with the Golden Rule. If you want God to forigve you, then forgive others.
That's not saying it's easy, and I'll probably do a few more blogs about this topic later. I have been hurt by a few people, and I've done my share of hurting others, so I'm afraid I have experience in this subject.
Fasting
(16) "When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show men they are fasting. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. (17) But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, (18) so that it will not be obvious to men that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."
This is where the "giving something up for Lent" thing comes into play. If you are giving something up, it shouldn't be obvious to everyone else. They shouldn't be able to look at you and say, "Man, you look terrible!" Instead, this should again be between you and God.
This isn't to say that you can't tell people what you are giving up. Obviously, I'm doing that here! The key is that while you want to be a good witness, you also want it to be an intimate thing between you and your Heavenly Father.
I realize this initial Lent post went kind of long. They will not all be this long - some will be shorter, some longer. I won't always be covering Lent-specific topics but just about anything that pops up into my head. If you have a topic suggestion, comment here or e-mail me: kenny.beasley@gmail.com.
God bless,
Kenny
(Note: Scripture taken from biblegateway.com, NIV version.)
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Why a new blog?
Well, I guess the best way to kick this off is to explain why I am doing this. I was talking with my wife Amanda about ways to observe Lent this year. Normally we give things up (candy, soda, etc.) But how does that end up helping my spiritual walk with God? It doesn't, really. At least, not for me. So I figured that a GREAT way to get closer to God and observe Lent is to start up a blog with a commitment to post in here every night about a passage of scripture or other spiritual topic.
Here is a little about me. First, I am a Christian. I believe that Jesus died for my sins on a cross that was meant for me. I have always believed this, at least as long as I can remember, but I've had some hurdles to overcome.
My dad died in November 1997, and my only living grandmother died six months later. Although I didn't realize it at the time, I started falling away from church and from God. A few years later, I got back into church more than I had before. I decided to become a pastor, but about a month after I made that decision, I fell into more sin. The weight of the sin was too much for me to handle and I fell back out of church.
I met a girl in 2005 that helped me get back on track. Her uncle is a pastor and I started attending that church. Eventually, I joined the worship team. I married that girl, Amanda, on May 17, 2008.
I will add that I stepped down from the worship team in October of last year so that I could properly focus on ministering to my family and, in a sense, regroup. This is going to be part of that process. I intend on ramping up in some sort of ministry after the Easter season is finished.
Over the next 40 days (and hopefully longer than that) I will talk about different topics relating to my life and those around me. I am going to be honest and up front in this blog, because I feel that is the only way to properly share what I need to.
I appreciate any and all prayers on my behalf. If you have a request for a specific topic to be covered, or a general comment, please feel free to post it or e-mail me.
Kenny
Here is a little about me. First, I am a Christian. I believe that Jesus died for my sins on a cross that was meant for me. I have always believed this, at least as long as I can remember, but I've had some hurdles to overcome.
My dad died in November 1997, and my only living grandmother died six months later. Although I didn't realize it at the time, I started falling away from church and from God. A few years later, I got back into church more than I had before. I decided to become a pastor, but about a month after I made that decision, I fell into more sin. The weight of the sin was too much for me to handle and I fell back out of church.
I met a girl in 2005 that helped me get back on track. Her uncle is a pastor and I started attending that church. Eventually, I joined the worship team. I married that girl, Amanda, on May 17, 2008.
I will add that I stepped down from the worship team in October of last year so that I could properly focus on ministering to my family and, in a sense, regroup. This is going to be part of that process. I intend on ramping up in some sort of ministry after the Easter season is finished.
Over the next 40 days (and hopefully longer than that) I will talk about different topics relating to my life and those around me. I am going to be honest and up front in this blog, because I feel that is the only way to properly share what I need to.
I appreciate any and all prayers on my behalf. If you have a request for a specific topic to be covered, or a general comment, please feel free to post it or e-mail me.
Kenny
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